I am 14 weeks pregnant this week.

I have been doing alright besides my normal hyperemesis gravidarum. I have learned I don’t do well with car rides at all. Before being pregnant I would get car sick, but not normally to the point of actually throwing up and it had to be longer car rides 2 hours or more generally. Well it’s a complete turn around now that I’m pregnant. I sometimes can’t even do 10 minute car rides without being sick. Which isn’t fun considering most of my family lives 20-40 minutes away. If I want any good restaurants, stores, or things to do on weekends I also have an hour trip. J refuse to be home bound though so I’ve just been bringing bags incase of sickness and try my hardest to breath through it. Also with that after I finish throwing up I seem to get migraines when we start driving again which makes every drive a million times worse.

I have been craving chips and cheese from a local fast food Mexican place near me. It’s basically homade chips with melted sprinkle cheese on them and I add sour cream. I also have been craving waffles a lot recently so my very loving fiance got me the waffle maker I’ve been wanting. And surprised me one morning before getting the waffle maker with Eggos after he got off work. (He works 3rd shift.)

Baby Bean has started showing more and more on me. I felt them kick the other morning and it amazes me every time. That there is an actual living being in my stomach. My living being. My bean. If you watch my stomach you can also see them moving around sometimes like from one side to the other. I’m slightly nervous for next week because I have two appointments one of which is a ultrasound to see if Bean has any genetic problems if I’m understanding right. It’s to check to basically see if they are developing alright and it can pick up on things such as down syndrome.

I’m more nervous just because I just want them to be okay. Ever since my first miscarriage I’m so nervous of losing this one and if there’s certain genetic factors I’m afraid they will tell me they aren’t going to make it. Every other ultrasound I’ve had they have seemed healthy according to the doctor and it’s just precautionary because of my weight (I’ve always been underweight. No matter how much I eat.) and because of the genetic factors in Lukas’s family. It just makes me very nervous. I go next Wednesday for that and then that Friday will be Bean’s 16 week appointment.

I am beyond excited for that one because I get to hear their little heart beat again. Which makes me want to cry every time I think of it. It was the best thing I had ever heard. It made me so happy. Happier than I knew I ever could be and I just want to hear it for as long as I can.

I have 5 weeks and around 5 days until Bean will be 20 weeks and I get to find out if they are a boy or a girl. Bean’s due date is October 29th so I have exactly 177 days from today or 5 Months and 24 days. If everything goes to plan that is. When I first found out I was pregnant everyone thought I’d be due in November so I was looking forward to getting to dress up for Halloween one of my favorite holidays. I was going to get my bump painted. If Bean comes early or on time that will not be the case unfortunately, but to be honest I’m so excited to meet that little one I wouldn’t care when they came as long as they are healthy.